Memoir

Previously, I was in an impression that eating and sleeping are the basic actions that can be performed without others intervention. That conception has turned out to be “not-always-true”. After seeing me a couple of times neglecting meals, my uncle got fed up. To make matters worse, he has also seen me sleep during the hours that are not meant for sleep. As a consequence, he turned serious regarding these two issues. Now I have to eat and sleep according to his wish when under his nose. No offense but not everyone likes to be commanded when to sleep and when to eat. Ultimately, as I seem not able to do even these basic things well, I am conceived to be useless, slow, aimless and all the negative adjectives which I do not like to be described using.

May be I was wrong. May be this conception is true. I know that I have serious discipline issues and may be I wasn’t doing even the basic things well at all. No personal insult that I got commanded what to do but the eating and sleeping patterns need to be addressed real soon. Thanks uncle, thanks for pointing my basic flaws out. I shall rectify myself and shall strive to become a stronger self.

-@28810:1052

Hyderabadi IPL

My brother Vihari came up with this awesome theme of naming all the IPL franchises with the area names in Hyderabad. He named 6 and I named 2 franchises. Here's the list

1. Charminar Super Kings
2. Kukatpally Knight Riders
3. Dilsukhnagar Chargers
4. Royal Challengers Bollaram
5. Kings XI Panjagutta
6. Dhulpet Daredevils
7. Moula-ali Indians
8. Ramanthapur Royals

Similarly, Kochi and Pune franchises will be added later when their names or known. ;-)

I am waiting for this day for over a year now. Ever since February left with its chilling weather and ever since march entered and ever since I saw your birthday listed here, I had been constantly rearing to wish you. I waited for so long that I lost in thought that you were in California and it takes 13 more hours for your birthDAY to start. for hours, I have been killing time and when the clock struck 12 and opened your profile and saw the location as Hyderabad. I thanked God a hundred times in just one min and started typing this message. I can't wait anymore. I am just here to wish you on your birthday. I may not be the first one to wish you and I know I shall not be the last. there shall be many more belated wishes in the days to come. I am just happy that I could make it just in time and thanks to orkut which made it possible.

wait a second, am I forgetting something. Its just enough to say "happy birthday" with out all this twaddle. but what more can I do? this is the only day I could talk to you.

HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :-)

Memoir

@19310:1138

All my life, I have been doing nothing. I am shocked at this realization. In the pre-intermediate days, I do not know much. I just took the life as it is. I made my choices at will and of course suffered the consequences, but I was never worried.

Immediately after completion of my tenth, I do not know from where I gained a lot of confidence or overconfidence you may say, I dreamed of topping the state in academics. I never did that before, never even toped the class in my school days except in UKG and 1^st. How could I aspire such a big thing? By the end of first two week-ends, the reality revealed itself. I am nowhere. I couldn’t even complete the class work taught for a week in a week. Nevertheless, I found a solution around the problem. The thing I did was not new. All my tenth, I have been doing the same thing. It didn’t do any damage but only increased my lethargy.

The results of first year quarterly exams came as a shocker. I stood among the top five in my class with 91.4% if I remember exactly. I need to remember the eight days before those exams. I sincerely followed the 8:30-19:40 time table in the college. I did what I am good at. The results showed themselves. I am satisfied. But that didn’t stop me from my time wastes and laziness at home. I continued doing what I was doing with the week-ends. Not only the deeds with the week-ends, had I have done a lot more things which an average teenager does. Nevertheless, I could get out of intermediate with 929 marks and with an EAMCET rank of 8399 which helped me land in a rather good college. All the time, I know I could do better but every time I felt complacent with the results.

All the time, I have the habit of making the wrong choices only to be proved so by the outcome of the results. I desperately tried for an admission in FIITJEE, I even attempted SAT and TOEFL after I paid Rs. 25000 for the first year of b-tech. Those are totally bad things to do as the results proved. I lacked direction. My parents always leave me with my choices, so, they were never wrong.

Exasperation

Here it comes, the whole reason for the writing of this memoir. When I look back at the last 5-7 years, I am not proud of my deeds. I always have the habit of doing the wrong thing at the right time. I mean, doing the things which are not ought to be done at the moment. I can do nothing more than being exasperated at myself. I buried many days of the past 7 years. After all these days of continuous underachievement, I couldn’t even dream high now. I think I know the problem, if I am right, I am sure that I can make everything straight at least now. I have the task at hand; all that I have to do is accomplish it.

- Vindian Smiles @19310:1216